Apr. 22nd, 2014

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Rowland just texted me, he is waiting for his sister to pick him up now.  His vasectomy is done. No more babies.

Surprised my initital reaction was to cry. I am realllllly ok with this. If I really, really, wanted another baby I would have done so by now. It wouldn't have been too hard to convince him if I reallllly wanted it. And I've known it was coming and happening and had no qualms about it.  I guess it's the finality of it. 

Even knowing and feeling we were complete with George there was always the "what if" that chance of nature doing it's own thing despite our best efforts. There was a chance that I could still want a baby and we could just make one. Now that's all gone. And honestly it's great. We've known since G was a  few months old that we were complete but both agreed to wait till we were 30 to decide one way or the other since we said if we had another George would be in full time school because I'd want that one on one time with the next baby. And He turned 30 in January and I turned 30 this past Sunday.

But still feeling just a little wistful of what could have been.
 

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